Thursday 23 May 2013

Photoshoot in Summer of 2013

Dear Vedant,

We did a family photo-shoot in the summer when Bua and Ani were here. You were soooo excited at the time. You were giggling, jumping around and just refused to sit still. You were not being difficult (as in crying/ throwing a fit/ being angry etc.). You were just too happy to be still.

I really like this pic of Papa and I giving you a kiss. You look so happy.
Lots of love,
Amma

Monday 20 May 2013

Vist to San Jose Gurudwara

Dear Vedant,

I don't have a picture of this, but I do remember how our trip to the Gurudwara went. This was your first trip to one. You wore the yellow kurta and white pyjama to the Gurudwara. It was so nice to see you run around the Gurudwara, a little boy, my boy. You came and sat in my lap for a bit and then went over to Papa's side. It was good, felt like a family.

Lots of love,
Amma

Saturday 18 May 2013

Mumma Dreams dikhaye..

Dear Vedant,

When I put to bed, I utter a lot of sweet nothings.. from "Good night, sleep tight chinu, see you in the morning, sweet dreams" etc. You have really caught on to "dreams". You said to me today, "Amma dreams dikhaye?". And then I said, you need to sleep to see them. You said "Jab Vedu bada ho jayega, phir Mumma dikhayegi". :)

So very cute! You also said, "Sweet dreams" all day today.

May all your dreams come true, and if they don't, I am sure God will have wonderful plans anyway :)
Sleep tight kanna, Love,
Amma

Friday 17 May 2013

Hanging out at the beach on Memorial Day Weekend

Dear Vedant,

We made a trip to San Francisco to show Bua the Golden Gate bridge, Union Square etc. We sat by the beach for a long time. It was a really nice day, the weather was just perfect. I think this is the first time you really liked being in the beach. You liked touching the water and getting wet. The only downside was that you got drenched from head to toe when you had a mis-step. You did not like that at all. For a few months after you were a bit scared of going into the water.

We would have really nice pics, Papa was also in a great mood to take pics and we posed happily, but unfortunately, the camera did not have a memory card. :(.

Love,
Amma

P.S:You and I are going to become really good swimmers over time my dear. Next summer: swim lessons!

Monday 13 May 2013

Haircut at Little Scissors

Dear Vedant,

Your hair has always been beautiful, long and may I say, like mine :) Papa and I both like you in your long hair and have resisted getting you a hair cut. However, now that summer is here, and you are no more a baby, further your hair was getting really long, I got you a hair cut when I got back from India. Your last hair cut was traumatic (you cried a lot, I hated how it turned out, your precious locks were gone!!). This time, I took you to Little Scissors in Fremont. They did a fabulous job! They have car chairs etc. to distract kids and have a massive TV with a cartoon running constantly. You sat in a yellow car and it was over in less than 10 minutes, no tears at all. I was so relieved. Finally, you look like a boy. a very cute one at that!

Love,
Amma

Before
After

Sunday 12 May 2013

India Trip and the dichotomy in being a Mom and a child.

Dear Vedant,


My two week trip to India to take care of Amma has been a learning experience. When I left, I was really sad to leave you and go. Through out the journey, I would see other kids and ache to see you. I was also worried about Avva. As soon as I saw her in the ICU though, I knew immediately that I did the right thing. She needed me, so did Thatha. She was not in good shape at all. And I think, for the first time, I saw Thatha rattled like that. I don’t know what it was. Anyhow, I did as much as I could and took care of them both. And Geethu peddamma came and took over from me.

I am returning, with mixed feelings though. When I was leaving them to board my plane in India, I felt great pain in leaving them behind and then the great joy that I know awaits me at home. It is a strange feeling. One day I will tell you, how I sort of came of age at the fag end of this trip. One day, you will too. I will be there for you then too, as I am now.

Lots of Love Kanna, see you soon,
Amma

Wednesday 8 May 2013

Chatting with you from India

Dear Vedant,


I missed you terribly when I was in India. I had to leave to take care of Avva. You and I chatted using Facetime on the iPad pretty much every day. You would not let me hang up at all. I saw you in tears once when I was about to hang up, heart breaking L I think for the first time, I felt physical pain like this. Once you hugged the screen, kissed it too. I would show you Banana and Mango and entertain you. You realized that Thatha was there and so was Avva later. You saw the fan and sort of knew where I was. When Geethu peddamma came, you surprised everyone by saying “Geethu Peddamma Amma ke right me he”. Seeing you on the iPad kept me going. And in a few hours, I will get to hold you again. I plan on holding on for a long time.

Lots of Love,
Amma

Sunday 5 May 2013

Mickey

Dear Vedant,

I had to leave you back in San Jose when I left to take care of Avva when she had her accident. When I was gone, Papa took you to Disneyland, we had planned to go with Bua when she had come to the US. I think you had a great time. I asked you what you liked the best about Disneyland and you said, "Mickey.". You liked a Mickey Mouse toy that you got at Disneyland. It had lights, and a little fan. Ani had the same thing in Pink, a minnie mouse.Oh the fights you had over this little thing!

Love,
Amma